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la jette 1962 french film by chris marker
very interesting, beautiful, confusing, sad film. though too bad it was not a greatest subtitle. white subtitle on black and white film… not the best design decision made. i don’t know if i want to watch 12 monkeys since it’s a kind of horror, but i’d be interested just out of curiosity.
the still shots were beautiful, especially couple of images of the woman under the sun bathing. her expression were just beautiful.
i’d love to see it one more time with a better subtitles.
Yesterday A mentioned that my work needs more emotion because I tend to be very logical and rational. After a night of sleep and some harsh reality check from bf, I realized that my work and my inner self is the total opposite.
I have a lot of emotions going on inside of myself. I can’t keep them. I have to let it out. Somtimes it’s too much for the boys to take. Though, I become much more practical and rational when it comes to creating artwork from my inner emotions; like my love map project. And it lacks of emotions.
So now I’m thinking… how do I bring more of outter rationality in my inner self and bring the emotional inside to my outside?
Bf also mentioned to not have makeup on myself and wants to see the ‘real me’. Quite honestly, I haven’t gone out of house without even a bit of eye brow attach since middle school. I’m totally serious. I went out with NONE makeup last couple of days and I feel completely naked. Self insecurity perhaps? I always tend to think I should look good and present myself in a good manner. I don’t know if it’s a cultural thing or how I was raised by the Japanese pop media. How to carry myself… I don’t know.
I was so inspired by a book Spilling Open by Sabrina He and Harrison that I borrowed from G last week. I love the ink and the free-style writing. I think I need a ink pen and some ink and start doing analog drawing/writing… I placed the collage I created yesterday with magazine cutouts on my wall above the mirror this morning. It’ll be a start point for me.
I was really sad and hurt about the reality check last night. But maybe it’s not so bad after all since I’m trying to face the really hard part of my inner self and trying to understand more of myself.
The song A gave me: I LOVE YOU by Joana Wang, composed by David Tao
